Can You Strike My Heart B4 The Sun Goes Down??

wow.

2009-12-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time haven't it?
me blogging and all.

now having my holidays.
cheong-ing for fyp.
i dun wanna screw my last moment in rp man. so, for those of you guys, who aren't interested, seriously, own up and stop blaming others for YOUR losses and failures. goddammit.

i had fun the past few weeks.
went for family chalet,
spending time with iman.
catch up with my best gf, Ama.
all the pics will be uploaded in facebook soon.

i just bought tickets to KL just now. Iman's younger bro, Imran, followed me. we went to Beach Road. cute la that boy, he said he never been there before. hehh. after that, we bought food for Iman and send it to his camp. weee....

we'll be heading to KL this Sunday and will be coming back home on tuesdae. 3daes2nights kinda thing. just us. awesome. camt wait. goodness i'm excited. he is as well, too. =)

and on wednesdae, Boboi wil be getting his result. i took off. so that i can accompany the boy to his new school and all. after that, i'll be heading to Iman's place. we'll be having a mini bbq outside his house. yayy. cant wait for that too. =)

you know. i made alot of achievements this year. no no. dun get me wrong. achievement that cant be seen. it's within myself. i dun need trophies or medal. it;s just that, i managed to control my emotions better. better composure, better attitude, i nailed in an interview. excellente. my younger bro listens to me. Iman and his family has been the greatest thing that ever happen and still happening to me. hehh..

awesome awesome awesome. proud of myself.
talk soon. =)

2009-10-30T11:54:00.001+08:00

another 15 more days
til i get the boy back in my arms.
i never thought i would ever feel this way.
i've never been so good, never been so faithful, never been so calm and collected.
thank you boo.
get back home safe okae.
i'll be waiting for you.
cant wait to spend time with your family and you again. =)

Life After You - Daughtry

Ten miles from town, and I just broke down
Spitting out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone, just trying to get home
To tell you I was wrong, but you already know

Believe me, I won't stop at nothing
To see you, so I've started running

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must have been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wasting time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinking about the better times
Must've been out of my mind
So I'm runnning back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you, God know what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause there's no life after you

seriously boo, there's no life after you.
cant wait to see you.
stay safe. =)

what's goin on lately........

2009-08-31T22:33:00.003+08:00

work has been fun for me lately.
as in literaly. i have been workin my arse off since last week, and i am getting more shift this week.
tmr will be the day i have my first Brazilian. i usually just shave, but heck, i wanna try something new.
cant wait, cant wait.
alotta my frens were like pretty worried for me. but nahh. i've went waxing alotta times, just that, this time, it's gonna be down under. that's all. hee.

exams over. holidaes are in. work has been great. life has been better. and love has never missed a beat.
i haven had that boy in my arms for the last 12 days. another 2 more days babyboo. cant wait to give ya a big hug!!!! goodness. he's always there tp calm me through the crazy rides. thanx love.

my cat has been trying to get on my nerve by running in and outta the house sesuke hati dier! i was thinking of getting for him a collar with my address on it. just in case. he listens to Iman very well. alamak.. when it comes to me.... makan hati, i swear. pfft.

i met up with my aunts, kuzzins and grandm the other day. my mum's side. ok la. we buke together. mummum.

i cant wait to buke with my boy. 2 more days boo.. 2 more days..

before i end this post, i wud like to say that

at times, it's true, life is what you made out of it.
so........ when life gives you lemon, bring some friends, open up a bottle of vodka, and go have a blast!

2009-08-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

and oh. i changed my taggie board.
blodie spams getting on my darn last nerve

cruelty of life.

2009-08-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

life..

alotta people have said that"life is what you make out of it"
but. what happens when things doesn't seemed and work out the way it has been planned?
does this means that we should stop looking ahead? does this mean that we should always be wary about people around us?

i see people falling in and out..
i see tears of joy and tears of pain.
where do we draw the line?
what do we say?
what can we say?

you know what's the saddest thing?
to know that someone in a bloodline is experiencing the same shit, but you knoe nth until it was rather late.
because, you thought, you were alone in this mess.

funny, isnt it?
how the world can play this cruel tricks on you?
and expect you to laugh along.
how do you say you're hurt?
how do you let people know you're in pain?
how do you control the tears from falling?

give me a mask.
i will play my part.

unsure heart.

2009-06-25T10:35:00.002+08:00

shouting was in the background.
i lay still in my room.
awaken by the sounds that sends my eardrums ringing.
"stop asking me for money"
i heard.
again.
the same topic that always causes them to quarrel.
that's when i heard it.
a slap across the face.

my cat must have heard it.
he meowed.
and the meow wasnt as per normal.
it was more of a crying sad meow.
and he was right outside the room.

"i ask nicely. why must you raise your voice at me?
what do you think i am?
a playtoy?"
*thud thud*
a head was banged on the bed. twice.
i heard cries.

i am still lying down in bed.
afraid to move.
i woke up way too early for school.
i wanna help.
but no, i'm not that strong.
i called him.
to just hear his voice for comfort and strength.
no answer.
i texted him.
just 2 words to let him know about what was going on.
"i'm scared"

after the noises have subside,
i dragged myself outta bed.
got up to get ready for school.
i washed up.
thinking.
wondering.
"why?"
at times i feel that LOVE is a cruel thing?
why stay when there's nothing to hold on to?
why stay when it hurts?
the most impt qn that gt me thinking.
"why am i afraid to stay at my very own home?"

i gt dressed,
with a smile across my face and an unsure heart,
i went out and head to school.

wow!!

2009-06-19T14:50:00.001+08:00

it's been a year since we had our first date boo!!
since we ate lunch together.
since you ferst fetched me from school.
wow.

i love you boo!!!

wow.

2009-06-16T13:44:00.002+08:00

things are fine.
cant wait, cant wait.
3 more days.
looking forward sooo much to it..

i miss you boo.
late night barbeque,
starry starr nights,
roasted marsmallows,
camp out.

with YOU.
=)

screwed up.

2009-05-29T12:39:00.002+08:00

i dunno.
i have done wrong.
i didnt tell.
no melody, no song.

i wished i had plucked up the courage.
kinda late, he's in rage.
i blew it.

i dunno what to do now.
things were made clear from the beginning.
i didnt leave you out of the conversation.
never.

i put a stop to it.
i dunno if it's enough.

i wanna leave, but i dunno if he wants me to stay.
but my legs are heavy to move.

thanx.

2009-05-05T12:35:00.003+08:00

to my dearest love,
my sweetheart,
the reason for my smiles and laughters,
the music to my soul,
the rainbow to my after-rain.

dearest Iman,
i give you my heartfelt gratitude for just being there for me.
for listening to my deepest thoughts,
for being my shelter through the stormy nights.
thank you.

you can never imagine how lucky i am to have you, how peaceful my mind is right now, thinking about you while blogging.
thank you.

i guess my "Thank You's" will never be enough to really express myself.
i told you my fears last night. and i was scared to let you know actually, but i told myself and trust you that you won't belittle me.
thanks for holding me close, wiping the tears from my eyes.
i can never thank you enough, Iman.

i have never regret having to meet you.
i have never thought that we could go this far, babyboo.
thanks for the endless nights, the shelter, the smiles, the miles, the rainbow, the stars, the care and concern, and the love.
thank you.

i am so in love with you, Noor Iman Bin Mohd Harun.
thanx for giving me another family i never thought i could have.
thank you.

I LOVE YOU

Yours Faithfully,
Fairuza Bte Abdul Hamid

babylove

2009-04-30T14:06:00.002+08:00

i miss him.
the boy.
who's in Taiwan now.
i had some prpoblems with my phone just now, and i called Starhub up to clarify and rectify the problem, so that he can reach me while he's there.

i miss him.
terribly.

going clubbing last night, with all the songs that were playing;
i miss him alot.
when i saw his fren, Anis, and we chat;
i missed him, wishing he was there with me.

If This Isnt Love - Jennifer Hudson

[Verse 1:]
I'm calling his phone up, just
to tell him how much
I really love him cause
he's everything I want
He listens to me, cares for me
so I truely believe

God send me an angel up from above
that's gonna love me for life
might as well be perfect
Only because, it's the only way
I can describe, so

[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
tell me what it is,
cuz I could be dreaming and just
plain crazy

If this isn't love
tell me what is, cause I never
felt like this baby

If this isn't love

L-o-v-e what it means to me
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]

[Verse 2:]
I'm selfish cause I don't wanna share
him with nobody not even those
People that came before me
But see, I never believed.

God would send me an angel up from above
that's gonna love me for life
might as well be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe, so

[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
tell me what is, cuz it
I'd be dreaming and just
plain crazy, (oh)

If this isn't love (oh)
tell me what is, cause I never
felt like this baby
If this isn't love

L-o-v-e what it means to me?
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]

So if you got real love
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that fits
right like a gloves
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up,
if this isn't love

Cause I know I ain't crazy
I know I ain't trippin
I know I ain't slippin
I know that it's love
See me with my hands up
If you think I'm dreamin
I know I ain't dreamin
Cause this reason maybe
I know what is love
If this isn't love...

________________________________________________________

another 3 more days, Boo.
3 more days til we'll be lost in each other's eyes,
til we get to feel the warmth of our skin touching each other,
til we get to kiss those lips we've always dreamt of every night.
thanx Iman.
for believing in me.
for trusting me.
for making me a stronger woman than i thought i can be.

i love you, Iman.
with all my heart.
wait. i dun have that, do i?
cause i left it with you.
=)

wait for you

2009-04-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

this wednesdae is gonna be havoc.
the girls will be coming over my place first.
den off we go.

aniwae, last Wednesdae, my sweetheart left for Taiwan.
that soldier is there right now.
wow.
if this is the test God is giving us, we are here to take it with open arms and heart.
i'm getting used to the idea of him being there and yeah.
we get to talk evey now and then.
sometimes 2 days, worst, 3 deays.
but he still text me la.
but nt often, cos both of us dun wan our bills to go rocket high.
i miss him alot.
i sent him off together with his family. haizz...
damn i miss the boy.
i'll be kidding if i were to say that i dun have tears in my eyes as i'm typing this now.

Dear Allah,
please take good care of Iman while he's there.
protect him from harm and sickness.
when he's cold, i hope your warmth, love and guidance will pull him through the night.
thank you.

i miss you Iman..
i'll wait for you..

i miss iman. always will..

2009-03-20T01:30:00.003+08:00

goodness. this songs are uber awesome.
bloodie awesome.
i love you Iman.
19 more days to spend time with you.
it's getting nearer.
time passes by faster.
i can feel it.

Dear God,
pls give us the will and strength to pull through when he's in Taiwan.
please keep him safe and protect him through all the training that he's receiving.
he's the bestest gift i've received from you.
and i would like to cherish him.
i love him alot.
thank you Allah.

girls just wanna have FUN

2009-03-20T00:55:00.006+08:00

goodness goodness goodness.
went with Momo last night(Wednesdae, 18th) to Attica.
jolly jolly, did we haf fun..
like what she said "the best thing is that it's just the 2 of us!!!"
crazee woman.
momo. cannot ardi ah.. must relac for now kae..
i gt some friends asking me "Iman tak mara ke kau pegi party2 ni sume?"
don't worry, Iman knoes my every move.
and besides, even if i lie to him(which i dun think i will),
he'll still find out.
nothing escapes his eyes.
he trusts me.
and i've gt great friends who are always on the lookout for me whenever we go party.
teh bouncers there knoe me as well,
so does the door bitch and the bartenders.
so, if anything happens, they'll be on the lookout. (hopefully)

thank you Iman for trusting me and i'm nt gonna abuse the trust yuou have in me.
thanks alot for understnding me.
i love you.
a whole lot.
nt because you allow me to have my fun, but because of all the other reasons at times i don't have to.
especially when i'm with you.

OK!!! enuff talking..
let the pictures do it.

arrival.

waiting for drinks

ni.. nak selet je!!

no shame! take themselves!

RAT and HIRO??
whut a name.

bitchy bitchy bitchy

awesome dude.

the resident DJ.

and psst.

he likes hazelnut latte.

booze and coffee???

just the 2 of us.

i am a shy person indeed.

whut a joke.

i wish i am.

wait.

tanak ah.

malu malu RUGI

if Iman is the rainbow after the rain, she is the colour.

come and escape with us!!!!

can you find fondue while clubbing?

well... I DID!!! and i COULD!!!!

WHAT???!!!

2009-03-16T22:41:00.003+08:00

here's where it is?
i hate that dreadful msg.
to think that i actually need to squat down on the floor to realy digest the msg?
wow.
what a shock.
but oh well.
congrats to my dearest.
i'm proud of you.
i knoe you'll make it through. =)
Momo said one month will pass by fast.
Adek comforted me.
should be ok.. right?
TAIWAN huh.
i'm left with just 23 more days to spend time with him til we part for a month.
hehh.
Fai's counting down again huh.

i love you Iman.
and i'll be waiting for you here faithfully.
i'll be praying for your safety every single day.
i'll be thinking of you every single second.
i'll be missing you all the time.

"when i'm with you.
i'll make every second count.
cos i miss you,
whenever you're not around.
when i kiss you,
i'll still get butterflies years from now.
i'll make every second counts
when i'm with you."

blog blogging pictures

2009-02-26T15:46:00.002+08:00

awesome awesome night out with my gfs last nite!!
though some things should really, really, be left unsaid. hahah

the day my bestest fren in the whole world went off to Aussie.
16th Feb. to study.
your ticket to freedom, begins on the day you checked in your belongings!
you go girl!!

my bestest GF ever!!!, A-Z-I-M-A-H aka MOMO. hehh
turns 24 on the 13th Feb.

my regular customer,, a dancer, the doll, now known as frens.
her last day performing at Zirca was last night.
she gave her all. yayy!!!
good luck on all your other shows at Brisbane, Sydney and Mexico!
psst: i aim to be like you, can?

on the 280109,
met Ruby while out with Azilah and the girls. hehh..
so ya.
Starbux RE-UNITE.

when i'm with you

2009-02-13T19:37:00.001+08:00

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count

cause i miss you,
whenever you're not around

when i kiss you
I'll still get butterflies
years from now,

I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

i miss you my love.
come home soon..
i'll be waiting to make every second counts.
my heart yearns for you.

what a night.

2009-01-30T01:08:00.003+08:00

wednesdae. 280109.
fuuhh. i had the most awesomest time with my girlfrens.
Me, Azimah, Shikeen, Azilah, Mao and Mon.
the 6 of us went to 4 clubs within hours.
hahah..
head off to Zirca ferst, checked out the place, and den we left for Rebel. again, checked out the place and off we went to our main destination and that was Attica, well, the gurls sure did have their fun. and so did i. we were partying letting ourselves loose.

"thanx Hunn, for allowing me to go with my girlfrens and let loose." weeeeeeeeee.
most of the pics are with Mao. so here's abit.

before meeting Shikeen and Momo and Marina Square Starbucks. went over to store ferst. that was when i ajak-ed Azilah.

at Topshop. nice right?

camwhore.

me and Momo.

again. at Attica2 toilet.

at home, after washing up and stuff..
head off to bed within seconds.

thanx girlfrens.
and Mon and Mao. i know about your plans of going the week after next week. i gotta check my schedule ferst. and have yet to tell the boy. hee.
for now, i really hafta head off to bed. tired ardi.

i knoe my boy is somewhere in his la la land, waiting fer me.. hold on, Dear.. i'm on my way.. meeting you in a while. =)

hmmm..

2009-01-20T13:21:00.003+08:00

these were what i ate for lunch yesterdae.. my faci gave us all a treat. we ordered KFC as well as SARPINO'S.
awesome shit. i was full yesterdae..

nonetheless, despite all those food that i ate, i still maintaining, but od course it'll do better if i start running again. someone has been pushing me to run anw.. hee.. i want to but malas ah.. fai nik tak discipline langsong..

k la.. gotta get back to work..

MJ loves her Spidey kae..

awesome.

2009-01-19T10:50:00.002+08:00

things have been going on well.
i've been turning up for class on time and been speaking out.
i've been a great and better manager at work.
i've been assigned the role of keeping the coffee culture alive over at store.
awesome.

i have sucha nice great weekend yet again.
thanx to him.
well, it takes 2 hands to clap.
hee.

thanx for the great day.
thanx for just being there.
thanx for crafting the smiles on my face.
thanx for bringing me to places i've never been before.
thanx for staying.

as i sent you off yesterdae, i'm glad we talked.
i'll stay.
i'm nt going anywhere.
i'm not giving in to selfish ways.
i promise you i'll stay.
i'll never leave.
thanx for assuring me the same sweetheart.
happy 7th months.
wow.
how time flies by.
i am in love with you.
with our relationship.
thanx for bringing out the best in me and taking care of me.

I LOVE YOU, NOOR IMAN

love story

2009-01-05T11:37:00.002+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while

Oh, oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

________________________________________________________

this song's stuck in my head.
wow.
awesome lyrics,
awesome voice,
awesome vid,
awesome scenario.

i had fun during the holidaes, werking and spending time with my Iman..
we went to Bintan for a short getaway with his family as well.
i am back with a tan. weee.

now i'm in skool.
connection is effing slow.
i cant edit pictures,
i cant upload pictures.
i cant do any shit.
-pfft-

cant wait.

2008-12-05T15:06:00.002+08:00

i cant wait for the weekend to play with the stars.
let's have a party of our own shall we?
just you and me,
hand in hand,
face to face,
breath to breath,
skin to skin,
heart to heart-
yours and mine.

i miss you my love.
take care of my heart. i left it with you.

"let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.
surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine.
just hold me tight, lay by my side.
and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own (leaves me all alone)
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time(all the time)

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(4X- smother me)

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So Baby I’m, Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(don’t let me be alone)

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(3X smother me)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
the one who calls you baby. "

-the Used , Smother Me

pics pics pics.

2008-12-04T11:00:00.005+08:00

last sundae. at werk. when sundae morning gets even more boring than ever.

a day after Boboi's bdae. last saturdae. went cycling with Iman and Boboi at east coast.
it was raining. we rode in the rain. and my rashes came. pfft. fun fun fun!!

supportive frens are hard to find, remember that, Mak Huda!!!
touching kan, aku and Lina turon. jiwe tetek!!!

this is what happen last 2 weeks when Fai is early for class and feeling hyper. but todae, finance sucks.

a few weeks ago....

2008-11-27T09:36:00.002+08:00

love them loads la seii..
syikin pulak cant make it..
had fun.. i think this was last 2 weeks..

Take You Down - Chris Brown

2008-11-26T10:45:00.002+08:00

Verse 1:
Here we are all alone in this room (oh)
and girl i know where to start and what we gonna do (yeah)
I'll take my time we'll be all night girl
so get ready babe I got plans for me and you (oh oh oh ooh)
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight we'll never end

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down
take u down, yeah

Verse 2:
Pretty girl lets take it off in this room
noo time to waste girl you know what we came to do ( oh oh oh ooh)
We got all night to try to get it right girl
I hope you're ready, hope you're ready, hope you're ready
I hope you're ready babe
Cause here we go you know how we do (oooh)
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight it never ends

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no more)
I wanna take u down
It ain't my first time but babygirl we can pretend,
Hey lets bump and grind girl tonight we'll never end

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no mre)
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down (I really wanna take u down)
take u down, yeah

Ooooo
Freakin' oh baby, like a pro baby and i bet that you (I bet you ooh)
Thinkin' oh baby, like you grown baby
So what you wanna do (what you wanna)
I'm gonna take it down baby nice and slow
So bring it let's goooo babaaaayyy (babaaaaayyy babaaaayyy)
Yea yea yea babaaaayyy (babaaaaayyy babaaaayyy)
(Come on baby)
Come on baby, come on baby

Chorus:
Let me take u down
I really wanna take u down
and show you what I'm about
Can I take you now
Your body body oohh
Your body body up and down (yae, yea, yea, yea)
So don't stop girl get it
quit playin wit it
Can't wait no more (I can't wait no mre)
I wanna take u down
I really wanna take u down (I really wanna take u down)
take u down, yeah(I said I wanna take u down)

__________________________________________________________

was texting with him just now.
i miss you la Iman.
a whole lot can?
pfft.
hmmm..
i feel like the weekend is coming nearer, and i cant wait til i get to see you again.
i love you sweetheart.
("v")
'v'

yayy

2008-11-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

happie bdae to my klassmate, Ping!!!
he turned 18 on Mondae.
the best guy(gentleman) ever.
and me and PQ always wonder whjy he hasnt got a girlfren.
he deserve a good one.
someone caring, put others before him, smart, soft spoken, quiet but yet nonsensical.
happie bdae bro!!!!

and these were taken just now during second break.

had lunch with Yaya and off we go camwhore.

Superhuman - Chris Brown and Keri Hilson

2008-11-19T11:08:00.002+08:00

Chris:
Weak, I have been crying and crying for weeks.
How'd I survive when I can barely speak,barely eat on my knees.

Keri:
But that's the moment you came to me, I don't know what your love has done to me.
Think im invincible I see through the me I used to be.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

Chris:
Strong, since i've been flying and righting the wrongs.
Feels almost like i've had it all along, I can see tomorrow.

Keri:
Where every problem is gone because I flew everywhere with love inside of me.
It's unbeliveble to see how love can set me free.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

It's not a bird, not a plane, it's my heart and it's going gone away.
My only weekness is you, only reason is you, every minute with you
I feel like I can do, anything..
Going,going i'm gone away, in love.

You've changed my whole life, don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.
Superhuman..

_______________________________________________________________

this song makes me smile.
exactly the way i feel and the way he makes me feel..
"my only weakness is you, only reason is you, every minute with you, i feel like i can do anything."

i am so in love with him..

"lunch wimme? pick me up den head to town after you get back from JB?"

hehh. sweet kan kau.
miss you la Iman.
cant wait for weekends.
love you.

almost forgot.

2008-11-18T09:47:00.002+08:00

i always wanted to upload this but forget.
that doesnt mean i forgot about you, sweetheart, cos that's the last thing i'd ever wanna do too.
this was taken on the 8th. went for dinner with his family at Buangkok Sakura.
and adek came over with his bdae cake.
weeeeeee...
i am glad to able to spend time with you and your family dear.

loadsa hugs and kisses.

happie happie happie

2008-11-18T09:20:00.002+08:00

dearest Iman.

i love today.

that's cause i hear your voice even through my blurness in the morning wishing me "Happie Anniversary" with a smile in your voice.

i am so in love with you.

thanx for showing me that life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past.

thanx for the laughters you've given me, the love, care and concern you've showered me with and will still continue doing so. i am eternally grateful.

you're my disease and my favourite drug.

Happie Anniversary sweetheart.

i love you.

momo and didie!!!!

2008-11-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

love them a whole lot..!!!!

weekend... pics

2008-11-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

pics for Saturdae..

2008-11-17T11:13:00.002+08:00

i had fun with they boy last weekend.
again he surprise me at werk.
he told me he booking out on saturdae.
but he popped by on Fridae when i was on attachment at Shaw Tower.
sucha sweetheart..
hee.

on saturdae, he came over and fetched me and then we went off to RP, pass Mak Oda the hairsprays.
den we went to Banquet to have our earli dinner. and walk around.
after that we go back to RP to watch Reflection. hee.
our ferst theatre show together. awesome.
after Reflection, we watched Record. we almost broke each other's fingers. and hands. loadsa shocking parts.
i am crazy. so crazy in love with him.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

well. me and Iman missed the other 2.
are things gonna change?
well, there goes the nites of us hanging out, under the stars and waves crashing the breaker.
i am gonna miss all that.

blogger in skool is damn lagging.
i wanna upload pics. i tool loadsa pics with the boy.

and yesterdae, after werk, meet up with Dinie and Momo.
we had long chats. Didie fetched me from SB-SU. as Iman sent me to werk, i do have my helmet, so Didie fetched me. and obviously, i asked him for permission ferst. hehh.
we talked about our lives, things that matters and just sit and laugh and reminisce.
awesome shit.
i had fun.

me and the boy talked alot last nite before we both head to la la land.
"i wanna fall in love forever with...
the guy who...
the girl who...
the guy who...
the girl who...
the guy who...
the girl who...
....
...
..
.
..
...
....
and the list goes on.

i am so in love with him.
"everyone have their worries"
hehh. sorry about the worries hunn.
i dun care about it.
u've assure me enuff.
i love you, Iman.
a whole lot.
just so you knoe.
i want us to be like this forever too.
and being with you makes me happy as well.

"youre the reason i'm thinking.
i dun wanna smoke on this cigarrettes no more."

Iman

2008-11-12T14:26:00.002+08:00

I’ll be living off your phone calls and your letters and your postcards
Every single word is like a secret wish come true
Well, who cares if we’re apart for the big days
It’s the small ones that made me fall in love with you

"you're the only gift that i need"

________________________________________________________

I Do - Dashboard Confessional

Oh love, hang on,
I’ve gotta say this right
'Cause I only get one shot,
Once in my life
'Cause I want to grow old with you
And I want you to hold me forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to share your life with you?
I do, I do, I do

Oh love, hang on,
If you're willing,
I’ll be strong
And I’ll give you the life that you deserve
'Cause I want you to know all of me
And I, I want to hold you forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to brave this world for you?
I do, I do, I do
I do, I do, I do, I do

ok. i'm smiling my arse off now in class.
and my fren just told me to stop smiling with that look on her face.

Hold Me Down - Motion City Soundtrack

2008-11-12T14:04:00.002+08:00

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..

i miss the soldier.
the one whom they called pokok. haha.
the one who makes my heart skipped a beat or beats even faster whenever his ringtone come up.
the one i am so insanely madly in love with.

i miss you Iman.

just something.

2008-11-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

"if it's over let it go now.
come tomorrow it will seem so yesterdae, so yesterdae.
i'm just a bird who's already flown awae."

i'm feeling now.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-11-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

yayy!!!

2008-11-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

my soldier is returning tmr!!
yayy!!!
i am so happie la. cant wait.
miss him like eff.
i am at MS now. hanging out with Atiq and Mok is reaching in a while.
taking cab home. cos....

pay is in half an hour time!!!
woo-hoo.
i wanna fetch Iman home tmr.
cos i skipped Fridae's leson onli once.
i am surprised my self.
hahah!!

aniwae, yesterdae was abit of pain.
be happie Asad.
you can hate me for the positive changes.
like i said, "people grow up and change. and i guess i am one of them"
i talked to Mat about it just now.
he said, he can see me mature in that sense.
thanx Mat. i needed it.
i am hapie that i finally get it off my chest.
clarification has been done.
i feel lighter now.

Iman should be proud of me.
he always say something like "do it when you're ready".
thanx for being understnding dearest.
i have been thinking of you.
and yah. i missed you that sometimes i am not sure if i should cry.. hahah
cos you dun wanna worry about me out here while you're in there.
i love you.
i cant wait to see you Iman.
onli God knoes how much i missed you.
have loadsa things to share with you about the whole of my week.
see you soon darl!!
mmmuuahhxx!!!

PS: elmo misses you too.

why?

2008-11-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

why cant some guys just get it into their thick skulls that when we girls say we dun wanna get to knoe them means we dun wanna get to knoe them?
even if it means we used to knoe them last time?
pfft.

i just got to knoe who one of the anonymous numbers are.
i think my kuzzie must have given him my number again.
it's one of the guys my kuzzin used to be closed with when he was in Canberra Sec.
forget it ok Mr Goalkeeper then.
i dun wanna get to knoe you again.
i dun wish to.
i am happie with my life now.
happie with Iman.
crazee in love with him.
head over heels for him to be exact.
happie with my frens and family.

and hell yeah i DONT need you.
i dun need your shoulder or better said, i dun need you in this perfect life of mine.
so get this into your thick skull.
"eff off."
am not being proud. i am saying this as nicest as i can be.
and consider "eff off" as humble enuff.
i can say werst things.

remember how i tried to contact you last time.
i was only 14/15 then.
remember how crazee i ws over your tall built and that deep dimple?
well. that was all in the past.
please.
get over it.
you went missing fer wad? 6 years and now you're back?
i survived didnt i?
it goes to show you meant nothing.
NOTHING. at all.
so yeah.

GET OVER IT.
"and so you're back? from outer space?"

he texted!!

2008-11-03T11:06:00.002+08:00

HE TEXTED HE TEXTED!!!!!

his fren smuggled a phone in as he has gt 2 phones. and Iman texted!!!
but i replied kinda late.pfft.
i wasnt feeling rather well.
so, the moment i reached home, i went to bed with the intention of waking up at 9 plus to eat.
but no, i didnt.
i slept all the way till 11 plus. and when i replied, no replys came back to my phone.

B.. Its me.. My fren smuggle hp bab dier ader 2 hp.. i just wanna tell u i love u soo much.. And i miss u.. Cant wait to c u syg on fri! Mmmuuaahx.. Looking at the spaces between my fingers every moment.. I love u.. I love u.. Mmmuaaaahx! Reply k? Daa..

but i fell asleep.
he must've waited fer my reply la..
pfft.
i'm sucha lousy date.
i love you too Iman..
i cant wait to see you as well this Fridae.
but i werking.. how?

and wth, there 2 anonymous number that called me.
one was just a missed call. and the other was a miss call and i actually picked up while i'm asleep.
futhamucka.
i dunno la both who.
i called back den both off.
and then, the miss call texted me "hi. are you Fai?"
i replied "who's that?" and he never replied me anymore.
siao lala.

todae i shall sleep late.
who knoes Iman might text again.
i miss him so much la.
cant get to hear his voice.
his smile on the fon when he answer the call.
i miss Iman.
i'll wait for you, sweetheart"

I SHOULDNT HAVE

2008-11-02T15:29:00.004+08:00

i shouldnt have read your posts.
nope. not at all.
painstaking?
i wonder if it still does?
i shouldnt have read it now.
it causes tears in my eyes while i'm working.
have you found that queen yet? i wonder.
do you still miss "the" scents?
"the" touch that makes you have the tingles inside?
"the" hugs that comfort you?
"the" kisses that take your troubles away?
do you?

i'm sorry. i cant help but to feel a sense of paranoia and jealousy.
i knoe it's been a long time since it happened.
pfft.
i guess its just me.
maybe i'm tired?
maybe i'm sick?
maybe because i miss you a whole lot?

i delete every memories i have of the past.
have you?
can you?
clear ma doubt can?

a
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u
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a
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c
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please?

i just reach home from werk.
perhaps i shall sleep on it.
i miss you Iman.
more than you ever knoe.
more than anything else in the world.
i wonder what you are doing now at the jungle. haha.
haiya..
actually i dun feel like posting this up and just save this in draft.
but you told me to blog about everything so that you can read it when you get back.

i miss having you here physically, not just in my heart.

hello November

2008-11-02T08:59:00.003+08:00

welcome to the month of November.
it's still early to blog but heck.
i am at werk now.
i just wanna say that i have a time of my life taking the cab to go to werk just now.
as a matter of fact, i dun feel like taking a taxi that's driven by Indian driver.
no. am not being racist. i mean i am of the same race.
he drove like nobody's business. it's either it;s still too early for him or he's drunk or he drives with his eyes close.
ma gawd.
the wae he swerve, the way he change lane like so close to the car infront makes me held on to my seat like it was the last taxi ride ever.
felt like a roller coaster?
no. worst than that maybe.
pfft.
stupid morning.
but when i reach store, i was feeling a lil better ardi.
i am werking with the coolest people ever.
wan.
he came out with the term "my manager-the Pornstar"
idiot.
some ppl knoe why. goddammit.
i felt so disgusted by the pic la.
and to think that it looks a bit like me.
futhamucka.
i was actually down with a alight fever at werk yesterdae, but i am feeling a lil better todae.
i telan some panadol and head off to bed when i reached home from dinner with Iman's younger bro and Shikeen.
Izzat's werds - "ever heard of turning around and saying "hello?""
yeah. i was otw to werk yesterdae and he was behind me. bt i didnt see him. like duhh.

-and this is marilyn here.-

ok. sidetrack. idiot marilyn.
aniwae. he was otw to go jamming.
and when i reach werk, i text him la that i end werk at 7 plus or 8 if he wanna go home together.
so he went to a gig at paya leba den made his wae here.
the three of us grabed a bite at kfc and just walk around aimlessly and head home.
crazee boy.

todae i werking with Marilyn, Wan and LiXin. weeeeeeeeeeeeee.
and Azilah is here too. apparently she like dun have house lyddat. hhah
she had breakfast with Noel and she was from closing last nite.
not tired sumore. she dun seemed tired at all la.
siao lala you knoe this Beyonce.
so far i am having fun at werk.
so much fun.

i miss Iman.
and yeah i knoe the feeling is mutual.
pfft.
wun get to talk to him til Fridae.
field camp.
ok la. wanna get back to werk.
i love him.
he knoes what to do when he miss me as i'm doing the same as well. =)

is this love
is this love
is this love
is this love
that i'm feeling?

a song for him.

2008-10-23T12:35:00.001+08:00

this song makes me cry in class todae.
i was listening to it and i won't see you tonight while typing my previous post.
thanx for alwaes being there Iman.
and making me realise that i dun need "caring" friends.
i guessed this is what my aunt and uncle of mine talked to me about.
there comes to a point of time whereby you have to let go of all the unnecessary stuffs and concentrate on the important ones.
pfft. sucha big decision being made.
"throw it awae, forget yesterdae, we'll make the great escape."
i am making that great escape.

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make
And the feeling of doubt, it's erased
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one and in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you
I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

13 yeaRS? SCREW IT. screw it all

2008-10-23T11:48:00.005+08:00

well. ysterdae has been an effed up dae in a wae.
some parts of it were awesome.
but most part of it was just nothing but a pain in the ass moments and shitheads nonsense.
i am tired.
tired to pretend it's not hurting me all throughout these 13 years.
i kept quiet.
'but you guys didnt see and read between the lines.
you guys ignored it.
what? is my mask to invisible to be seen?
or are you guys just blind and assume i'm alright?
with everything?

i guess what he said is true. "i have such caring frens"
caring with the open inverted comma.
i wonder am i dumb to still be here in the ferst place and not walking awae?
am i the one?
if you guys dun effing appreciate me, i can just throw awae the 13 years of frenship.
guess you guys didnt take time to get to knoe me.
to knoe me well enough to knoe what pisses me off and what makes me laugh til my stomach hurts.
but he does.
he knoe what pisses me off and how to make me laugh til my stomach hurts.
and not onli that, he also knoes what makes me melt and weak in the knees.
do you guys knoe?
so i can clearly say that quantity means nothing. rite?
i can knoe someone for more that 10 years, but i knoe no shit about the other party that more than ten years means nothing. nothing at all.

and you knoe what's more saddenning?
is when the person i need so much now,
is in camp, and apparently in a wae or another mad at me fer turning up late fer class.
i want his hugs.
his comforting arms around me to tell me it's alright.
his warm kiss on my forehead and tell me it's okae.

i gt to skool late as i was uber tired from last night.
and guess what, i didnt even enjoyed the second part of last night.
not even one bit.
if i noe this is gonna happen, i wouldnt even join you guys.
pfft.
kalo aku tak join cakap aku nik itu la ini lah..
you guys are still fine w/o me.
ape yang tak gerek kalo aku takde?
aku kluar dudok kedai kopi makan prata, korang pon tetap having fun pe kat dalam saner.
pakkal aku almost broke siakk.
if not i would've just tke the cab home. and i mean it.

i am tired of being the mannequin, the robot for you guys.
this have to stop.
i have to put a stop to this.
cme find me if you want.
other than that, count me out for the gatherings and stuffs lyddat.
i knoe ppl would say i'm stupid.
let them sae.
i couldnt care less.
if it's 'cause of all these "caring" frens i have that is gonna create a gap between me and my loved one, i'd be the ferst to pull out.
i stood up many times fer you guys.
too many times.
ppl grew up and changed.
i'm one of those,
i'm sorry.
thanx for the memories.
ciao.

songs songs songs.

2008-10-21T14:22:00.005+08:00

David Cook - Lights On

Never really said too much,
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough.
Just try to keep my spirits up,
When there’s no point in grieving.
Doesn’t matter anyway,
Words could never make me stay.
Words will never take my place,
When you know I’m leaving.

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along

{Chorus}
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Rihanna Feat Ne-Yo - Hate That I Love You

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for awhile?

[Ne-Yo:]
No...

[Ne-Yo:]
but you won’t let me
You upset me girl
then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

[Both:]
But I hate it

[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

[Both:]
But I hate it

[Ne-Yo:]
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..

[Rihanna:]
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (giirl......)
But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go)
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so.. so..

___________________________________________________

i'm so in love.
with him.
and the song right before this post is exactly how i feel about us.
pfft. he makes me miss him so much that even i hate it at times.
but yet the feeling s awesome.
when he calls, i practically jump for joy or run after my ringing fon.
crazee?
i knoe!!!
ok la. i wanna get back to stoning.
love love.
huggs.
mmmuaahhx!!!
(for him of course)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-10-20T13:39:00.003+08:00

ok. hello.
am in class now.
i had an awesome weekend.
friggin awesome.
now, lemme share kae.

Saturdae.
Iman booked out.
picked him up at PasirRis.
send him home.
he came over.
went jalan raye with him.
he siap siap at ma place.
Bai helped us take picture.
will upload later at home.
met his Mak and Bapak.hehh.
and then he met my closest aunts.
and i met his frens as well.

after jalan raye, he sent me home, get his stuffs and den we went off to his place.
at carpark, saw his mummy and abah.
den they ask to come over.
he got changed and den we went out to meet adek and bf.
we spent time at labrador.
they slept. i cant get to sleep.
for the first time ever, in the middle of the nite, being alone, awake, didnt make me mad at all.
instead it made me feel contented and at peace.
just to see them all.
sleeping soundly.
that night, the sky was friggin clear.
i saw Tania even on the bike.
as we lay down with the sounds of waves crashing the breaker, and night full of stars, i smiled.

it was 4 mths since we met.
since we laid eyes on each other.
since he smiled at me, and i returned it back.
since first date.
since "cant live w/o me already?"
wow. so fast huh?
i love being around him.
cant explain the feeling but i am so in love with that feeling.

on Sunday, we went for breakfast.
i got the wrong order. but it doesnt matter. =))
got a free massage as well.
how awesome can my weekend be?

that must be the best 4th mth dating anniversary ever.
more are yet to come, i just knoe that.
Iman makes me smile.
and i love it.
can someone get me a mop please?
like now???
i'm melting ardi.

pfft. nvm let malay songs entertain me now. =(

2008-10-16T14:33:00.002+08:00

Laksamana - Gugurnya Bunga Cinta

Izinkan aku sayang
Menyentuh perasaanmu
Biar gelora cinta semalam
Izinkan aku sayang
Merinduimu selalu
Biar bergetar nalurimu

Walau berkali kau membenci
Cintaku takkan hilang
Himpunkan semua kemaafan
Dengarkan oh! rintihan

Andainya kau pergi
Gugurlah bunga cinta
Terpadam mentari
Yang menyinar oh

Pulanglah oh! sayang
Kau ku nanti penuh pasti
Rintihan kecundang
Untukmu oh! sayang..

Taufik Batisah - Usah Lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia

Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu

Usah lepaskan

Bridge
Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Repeat Chorus

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan

Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu

i plus you equals to WE

2008-10-16T12:23:00.003+08:00

"i knoe i haven been the best that i can be or someone you wanted maybe.. but i'm trying as hard as i could to be just as much as the girl in your dreams. i love you, Iman. really do."

"u've always been my dream girl =)"

now can someone tell me to stop smiling?
to continue to do my PP posters?
he's oh-so-sweet. goodness.
i am getting al the sweet stuffs, ain't that right?
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

pics pics pics!!!

2008-10-15T22:36:00.007+08:00

last saturdae

i love him

yayy!!! bought fer him and maself!!!

weeeeeeeeee

nice kan?

at werk on sundae

his new cap

at skool on mondae

camwhore

went fer manicure

i had fun making noise and disturbing ppl with the Bolbos.. Hamy go fer eyebrow trimming.. hehh.. we all look good!!!!
weeeeeee

on tuesdae.

girlish or whatt

perangai nye muke

we aint stucked up y'noe.

jalan raye

huda and me

me and lina

bluek

me and huda's niece!!!

peace

girlie affair

cute ain't she?

burok!!

camwhore

3 manje!!

i had fun with the girls!!! more pics will be uploaded sooon.

i am, whatever you say i am.

2008-10-14T15:30:00.002+08:00

hey Iman.
do u knoe this crazee girl here misses you so, that at times she just wish she could lay in bed all day and all night long, being in lala-land with you?
do u knoe that when she wakes up, u're on her mind that it was even normal fer her to check her hp first to see if there's any miss calls or msgs from you?
do you knoe that when she got out of the bathroom, she'd say "good morning sayang" to the fotographs on her mirror with such chirpy voice and endless smile?
do you knoe that upon getting ready for school, she'd blow kisses to the fotographs as stated above?
do you knoe that when she reach school,she'd chck her horoscope and yours and pray that the Almighty will keep you safe of your horoscope seems negative?
do you knoe that this girl here wil read ur msges over and over again and smile non stop as she's getting the good stuffs from you?
do you knoe that she felt like she's the luckiest and happiest girl ever to have met you and pray that the feeling will forever stay?
well apparently, this girl here hopes you do knoe how much you mean to her and wanted you o knoe what she's feeling as well.
i love you, Iman.

just another random edited picture.

10 things i hate about you.

2008-10-14T14:05:00.002+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

this poem always makes me cry in the show.
and Iman, i'd love to watch PS, I Love You with you.
i'm honoured you actually asked. =))
love la seii..

define

2008-10-14T13:55:00.003+08:00

to love at all is to be vulnerable.

vulnerable:
susceptible to criticism or persuasion or temptation
capable of being wounded or hurt

ok. fotos fert the week..

2008-10-11T10:56:00.005+08:00

mak oda holding Rayn Aniq at Kak Ena's house

Kak Gelenger and me!!!

thi sis what my team mates do to me when they are bored

and make me as their bahan.

ezze and me on thrusdae

wednesdae night.
Fai's drunkard night's out.

ladie's night?

went to Lil India and do some random shit.

in the train otw to Lil India

mao and Mon

my new slippers.

my new hand made manicure.

at woodlands civic centre after party world

before heading to party world

mao mao

gt this temp shit when buying Twilight book

priceless possession. =))

camwhore

dun focus on me, check out the boy at the back.

sepet kan mater aku!

=)

me and Yaya last Fridae
again.

ok. i agree with Mon. this sucks. pfft

2008-10-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

Name: Fairuza
Date: 10/9/2008
Colorgenics Number: 34571260

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

imisshim

2008-10-08T15:48:00.003+08:00

my heart stop fer a while
when i think about him just now.
has he eaten?
what is he doing now?
is he thinking of me too?
i miss him.

i smiled to myself for a while
reading through his messages.
and looking through the pictures.
i wanna feel his touch, his hugs and kisses.
what is he doing now?
i miss him.

a few more days,
just a few more days.
pfft.
i miss him.
yes, Iman, I MISS YOU.

with you...

2008-10-03T11:18:00.002+08:00

But with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground
With nothin' but a t-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you

You speak and it's like a song
And just like that all my walls come down
It's like a private joke
Just meant for us to know

I relate to you naturally
Everybody else just fades away
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Just knowing you found me

ok. everybody went "aawwww"....

2008-10-03T10:27:00.002+08:00

3rd for 2.4KM run??

HELL YEAH!!
proud of you dearest.

like in a movie,
everything went slow-mo..
Tanisha Eiliyah and Taufiq Alhakim playing together..
us, by the beach..

crazee for this boy

Ciara - Promise

2008-10-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

Come enjoy the life
Baby take you time
I just wanna find you (you) you (you)
Baby you and I been have a good time
Tell me what you like ooh ooh
(I just wanna be with you)

Now listen, I've been single for awhile now
And I been kinda lonely
I've been looking for somebody to talk to, love me
Someone who can hold me
Is that you?

I'm looking for somebody I can call "boo"
Looking for the only one that I can give my all to
Tell me if it's you, you, you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make ya move

You can be my teacher I'll do homework
You can give me extra credit baby I'll do more work
What you wanna do, do, do
Now it's me and you, you, you
Move

This move so right, how it feels so right
You can be my prince my knight
You can be my superman save me here I am

'Cause baby, there's nothing I wont do, to spend my life with you
I'll give my love to you, I promise, that I will never lie to you boy
Theres nothing I wont do, to spend my life with you
I'll give my heart to you, I promise, that I will never lie to you boy

You and me together, picture perfect
I'll spend all my money all the time becuz you're worth it
It's just me and you you you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make a move

Call me momma, spoil you like a baby
Thinking 'bout you, dreaming bout you got me going crazy
What you wanna do, do, do
Now it's me and you, you, you
Move it

Thie move so right, how it feels so right
You can be my prince my knight
You can be my superman save me here I am

Baby
Theres nothing I won't do (No, no), to spend my life with you
I'll give my love to you (I'll give my all)
I promise, that I will never lie to you boy

Theres nothing I won't do (Nothing I won't do), to spend my life with you
I'll give my heart to you (I'll give), I promise,
That I will never lie to you boy

Ohhhh

I mean everything that I say
From the bottom of my heart
I will never, never, ever, hurt you
I'll open my heart

I'll open my heart and give it to you
Tell the whole world that I'm in love with you
Whatever you want, baby I'll do
I know I don't want nobody else but you

Theres nothing I won't do (There's nothing I wont do baby)
To spend my life with you (To spend my life with you)
I'll give my heart to you, I promise,
That I will never lie to you boy, ohh

Theres nothing I won't do,
To spend my life with you
I'll give my heart to you
(I will give my all to you my baby boo my love is true oohh)
I promise, I will never lie to you boy

Baby boy you got me, I been waiting waiting waiting
For you
You can be my homie, I'll be waiting waiting waiting
For you
Baby come and hold me, I'll be waiting waiting waiting
For you
You can be my one and only

pics pics pics!!!

2008-10-02T11:03:00.005+08:00

i had such an enjoyable day.
except fer the fact that some of ma aunts on my mom side just being a lil toooo conservative as per norm.. about my piercing.
lemme get this stret, i'd rather do what i wanna do NOW than to regret it when i get married or have a family on my own.
this is my life, this is my NOW.
obviously in the near future, all these piercings wil be gone, DUH-uh.. PFFT.

thank gawd i had a really great start of the day with Iman coming over.. so whenever someone try to piss me off yesterdae, i just kep to myself and said "i wun let this ruin ma day cos i had a great start."
plus msging him all the way yesterdae made my raye even more worthwhile.

can someone tell me i'm crazee now?
that i'm head over heels in love going crazy over him?

cos i am.
and i don't wanna stop feeling this way..
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee

and i pray that what we pray for will come true, Iman.

Selamat Hari Raye

2008-10-02T10:53:00.003+08:00

i was so happy yesterdae..
ecstatic? definitely!!!

he came over on pagi raye to just collect his "purposely-left-behind" shades.
awww.. so cute.
he looks drop dead gorgeous la with his baju raye puteh and sampeng with his clean RXZ.
i was waiting fer him under the block with my kebaye puteh and selendang off my shoulder plus not so glamorous slipper. haha.
hee..
damn i am in love.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

when Janis Ian meet up with the Mean Girls.

2008-09-25T20:46:00.003+08:00

mean girls plus Janis Ian

me = Janis Ian

Ling Hwee = Karen Smith

Hammy = Regina George

Monisha = Gretchen Wieners

me at Orchard POint before starting shift

"taste my shit" girl

queen bee

and the "i cant help it if i'm popular" girl.

i have loadsa fun with the Bolbos.
and guess what? we're gonna have a slumber party next month.
awesome?
i think so too..
i am in charge of music.
and then there'll be drinks, marshmallows, pink slippers, pink boxers, pink g strings, pink bras, pink PJs, pink everything.
and oh ya.. more video taking.. hahahah.
oohhhhh..
i SO CANT WAIT...
aiyayayyyayayyayayy!!!!

check this out

2008-09-25T13:51:00.001+08:00

i think they'll be famous.

if u're not the one

2008-09-24T14:55:00.002+08:00

these few lines are taken from Daniel Bedingfield's song, IF U'RE NOT THE ONE.
these few lines are my FAVOURITE LINES from him..
and i wanna share these with you ppl..

.
..
...
..
.

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

hmmm

2008-09-24T11:19:00.002+08:00

i was watching this in class just now.
haha. kinda miss it..
those were the days.
the girls.
the talks.
the break.
the anihow playing of rebane as long as there's a nice rhythm to us. haha.
the jokes.

i had fun while i lasted.
support you girls al the way, though i am not part of u girls animore.
wow. it's been a long time huh.

k la k la.
my faci looking at me now.
da la datang lambat, ader hati nak blog and tgk video.
hehh..

Nivea - Don't Mess With My Man

2008-09-22T13:25:00.003+08:00

lately, this song has been running through my head.
i think i shall let the lyrix express out my feelings.

[spoken]
Uh, I like it baby (yeah)
Uh, one time for the club (ye-eah)
Two time for my thugs, uh-huh
Three times for my ladies, c’mon, c’mon, c’mon (ooh, oh)
Uh, nivea y’all.. je y’all... (oooh)
Uh-uh, je y’all

[nivea]
It was hard to find a brotha that was down for me
So I’m tellin everybody let him be
Cause he’s mine and I can’t take no pigeons tryna take my baby
So I thought I had to let you know
Find someone that you can call your own
Cause now you’re walkin in the danger zone
And if I touch you I’ll be wrong

If you mess with my man, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone
Don’t mess with my man, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Here’s a little advice for you, find your own man

[je]
It was hard to find a girl that’s really down for me
Seems like a lot of niggas tryin me
Cause they tryna take my baby, oh what the hell
So now you really better check yourself
Messin with my girl is bad for your health and
So you know you will be dealt with
Better find your own girl

If you mess with my girl, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Got my niggas, got my girl, so find your own and leave mine alone
Don’t mess with my girl, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Here’s a little advice for you, find your own girl

[nivea]
Girl I’m warning you, if you want my man
You should just keep your hands to yourself, now-now

[je]
And playa I’m warning you, if you want my girl
I suggest that you look but don’t touch, now-now

[n] it was hard to find a brotha that was down for me, don’t mess with my man
[je] it’s hard to find a girl that’s really down for me, don’t mess with my girl
[n] hard to find a brotha that was down for me, don’t mess with my man
[je] so hard to find a girl that’s down for me, don’t mess with my girl

[nivea]
If you mess with my man, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone
Don’t mess with my man, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Here’s a little advice for you, find your own man

[je]
If you mess with my girl, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Got my niggas, got my girl, so find your own and leave mine alone
Don’t mess with my girl, i’ma be the one to break it to ya
Here’s a little advice for you, find your own girl

last fridae... 190809

2008-09-22T11:10:00.003+08:00

hung out withn Bolbos b4 gg to werk.
fun shit.

girl power!!

best budds moment

2008-09-19T13:24:00.002+08:00

fun hanging out with her.
disturbing ppl..
suke bukak2 pintu utk orang??
suke bangon dudok bangon dudok??
haha.
4 years of knowing this girl..
awesome shit.
we get on each other's nerve, but we're still the best after all.
we irritate the hell outta each other, but we still love.
love la seii .. =)))

wouldnt it be nice???

2008-09-19T09:49:00.003+08:00

it's nice to know that people miss you.
really.
thanx Atie fer leting me knoe that just now. awww.
i'm touched.
i miss Endang too.
but responsibilities ah. so yeah.

it's even nicer to knoe that the people whom you misses, misses you too.
the feeling is mutual.
and nothing felt better.

it's nice to receive his phonecall in the midst of discussion.
the way i smile and my heart beat skipped faster when i hear his "hello?"
the way my stomach did a somersault when he said "love you."

it's nice to hangout with your buddy and they knoe how you feel exactly whenever a certain thing that causes you to feel like shit pass you by.
the understandings.
the calming-me-down moment.
the right words to say.

it's nice, duncha think so?? =))

2008-09-19T09:49:00.000+08:00

I'm a O76-C52-E91-A38-N22 Big Five!!

Iman - Angel of Mine.

2008-09-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

You came into my life, sent from above
When I lost all hope, you showed me love
I'm checkin' for you, boy you're right on time
Angel of mine

160908/170908/180908

2008-09-18T10:45:00.006+08:00

at werk.
right after piercing.
i could hardly talk.
finally gt it done!!
woo-hoo!!!
Iman cant wait to see it. haha.

170908.
went buke with my loved ones.

camwhore while waiting fer azan.
we were at geylang, Cafe Galaxy

sempat

lina and me

huda and lina

huda and me.

me again

when girls go out, tissues are a must!

bandong!!!

Lina's nasi goreng sambal ayam

huda's nasi goreng ayam black pepper

my fried beef kway teow

them.

ok. this was uncalled for.

before heading our seperate ways

at home

180908.
me and ling ling

she's freaked out.

monisha and me

hammy and me.
and she think my tongue is retarded.
hahah.

love them a whole lot.

i miss Iman a whole lot too.
good luck fer ur ippt dear.
and what?
my date wil be the best pt in the company??
woo-hoo!!!
hehh.
proud of u dearest.

2008-09-16T13:46:00.001+08:00

boo-yahh.

2008-09-16T10:52:00.001+08:00

yesterdae adek came over and hang out. i cooked sambal udang and hotdog. woo-hoo!!!
adek was like my tester.. yayy!!!

ama's bdae ysterdae.

the surprised bdae girl. more pics will be uploaded once she upload in her multiply.

eating one quarter of the cake.

i.look.dead.
and i love it. haha

ok. i am uber bored.
in class now.
doing Business Finance.
exactly last week, i was airport doing my PP.
exactly last week, i met him at Bedok and den we went to Jalan Kayu to eat.
exactly last week, we were lying down at my favourite playground at Serangoon Garden enjoying the view of the sky filled with stars.
exactly last week we were having our own fun at the playground behind my block an that was when you start to hug me from the back and sang Dear God.
exactly last week, i cried in front of you.
exactly last week, we were hugging like we dun wanna let go.
all these happened exactly last week.
pfft.
i miss u, Iman.
really really.

LOVE U GF

2008-09-15T12:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY

21ST

BIRTHDAE

TO MY

HALF

TWINNED

UNBIOLOGICAL

LINKED

BEST GF,

AMALINA BTE SUJAK!!!!

going Crazy - Natalie

2008-09-15T11:02:00.002+08:00

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)
Baby
______________________________________________

To Iman,
the guy who have the ability to make me laugh when i dun even wanna smile.
the guy who keeps my feet on the ground, when i could feel myself flying.
the guy who keeps me sane with his insanity.
the guy who makes me go lost for werds with his charm.
the guy who still makes me weak in the knees and have the earthquake in my stomach.

that dae. 110908

2008-09-13T16:04:00.002+08:00

in the bus otw the ferry terminal

in the ferry.
i swear i almost vomitted in the ferry.

him. awww.

the boy and the dad.

me and him.
one last pic when he was sending us back to that ferry.

i miss you Iman.
i'll wait fer you.
i am no longer that naive girl few years back.
let them say whatever they want to.
i dun care.
you and i both love.

my baby you - Marc Anthony

As I Look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies
You're the simplest love I've known
and the purest one I'll own
no you'll never be alone

(chorus)
My baby you
Are the reason I could fly
And cause of you
I don't have to wonder why
Baby you
There's no more just getting by
You're the reason I feel so alive

090908 and 100908

2008-09-13T15:51:00.003+08:00

i was at Airport on the 090908.
didnt turn up fer skool
was rushing my PP.
hafta be submitted by 2359 that nite.
stayed at airport til 2300hrs.
when i completed the PP, it was like a load off my mind.
meet IMan at Bedok.
he was playing takraw there.
after he fetch me, we went to eat at Jalan Kayu.
den we went to my favourite playground at Serangoon Garden.
loadsa stars that nite.
and he even joked saying, "they also wanna send me off."
mangkok.
shut up ur face.
after the payground, he sent me home. we hung out the playground behind my block pulak.
we were tickling each oher, laughing our arse off, disturbing each other.
den he hugged me from the back, his head rested on my the back of my shoulder, and sang "Dear God."
waduuh..
as per norm, tears rolled down my cheeks.
i was so quiet, but he knoes.
he pulled me to face him.
and said "nak nanges pn nak sembunyi dgn i"
nak aje aku bantai.
pfft.
he hugged, i cried sumore.
he wiped the tears off ma face.
den nak balek, after hugging, i was just about to walk away, he pulled me and hugged me again.
idiot.

the dae after, he came over to my store when i'm doing a wednesdae closing shift.
i passed him the card.
we hang out sumore.
we hugged, kissed.
and den he go off hang out with his frens.

ok.
now i am missing him.
once again.
exactly 2 more weeks to see him.
he'll be bookin out on the 27th.
cant wait.

080908. cable car ride.

2008-09-13T15:46:00.002+08:00

went for a cable car ride in the faternoon of 080908.
den we went buke at Beach Road, ate my Mutton Chop!!
finally. get to eat my mutton chop.
den went geylang. ermm.
den met up with Adek and Dynn again to go JB.
and that was when Dynn got beaten up by a group of stoopid guys at JB.
nothing better to do.
luckily nothing happen to my younger sister.
if not...
CCB.
nothing to do, den attack the Singaporeans. bloodie eff.
and he's like only one person la. den you guys are like 3-4.
at least play fair and square la kan.
wah pehh.
lydat also must teach izzit?

aniwae. i was thinking of piercing my tongue todae.
pfft.

070908

2008-09-13T15:37:00.002+08:00

hung out with Iman ferst. went to bike sticker shop.
den make our way to buke at Al-Majlis, bought Famous Amos cookie,
got some saman,went geylang, terserempak with Ano and his camp frens,
bought my baju raye, bought bunge api, and bomb bag, make our way to
Henderson Waves whereby we played Pictionary.
i sucked at it, trust me.
ketupat also dunno.
wtf.
thanx la ehk.
i am at home now, not werkin. wow. on Saturdae afternoon, Fai is at home?
goodness.must buy 4D.
i was editing pictures and listening to My Baby You by Marc Anthony, missing Iman.
den he called!
awww.
just to say he miss me.
cute kan kau.
i was so uber happie la.
i miss you too Iman.
really.

celebrating her birthdae on the 010908.

2008-09-13T15:34:00.001+08:00

bought fer that crazy a burfdae cake. and she actually cried. wtf.
i cant find her pic whereby she kene sabo. daymmn!!

Ashanti feat Nelly and Akon

2008-09-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Chorus
The way that you walkin, the way that you talkin
you're the one i want to spend this night with
tryna get in them draws and bang it out til the morning
i can already tell you want it
cause you shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me
keep on shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me

Verse 1(Ashanti)
Hey boy
I think i just might wanna come see you tonight
and you can have your way boy
i know its been a while since you made my body right
now i've been waiting patiently, anticipating you and me
and it aint no question cuz boy i love you when you put that body on me
Chorus
The way that you walkin, the way that you talkin
you're the one i want to spend this night with
tryna get in them draws and bang it out til the morning
i can already tell you want it
cause you shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me
keep on shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me

Verse 2(Nelly)
Hey how you doin mama
I need to know ur name
You givin me the eye eye
Im givin you the same
It just hit me right now
What we should do today
Go tell you friends bye bye
And lets go hop a plane
Its no mistaken the attractions ironic
I wanna make you someone more then just a a bon in my closet
I wanna win that type of relationship
Where you wanna come hang when your man is trippin
You say your short this month and your late on your rent
He took your car watchin me hold this
Hey hey you see oohhh
You see lil mama outta control

Chorus
The way that you walkin, the way that you talkin
you're the one i want to spend this night with
tryna get in them draws and bang it out til the morning
i can already tell you want it
cause you shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me
keep on shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me

Verse 3(Nelly)
Shorty movin closer and closer
And slower and lower yeah
I think she know she makin me hard
Got every man in the club like oh my God
She slicker then lody dody
She work her body body
When you done her at the party
Meet me down there in the lobby
And ill be waitin on yah
And no debatin on yah
I got a seat for yah
We can let the top back and ohhhhhhh
We don’t have to stop girl nooooooo
I got a lil something I wanna shoooooowww
Believe me your strong
Lil mama please don’t make me wait too long

Chorus(x2)
The way that you walkin, the way that you talkin
you're the one i want to spend this night with
tryna get in them draws and bang it out til the morning
i can already tell you want it
cause you shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me
keep on shakin it all for me, givin it all to me
rubbin dat body on me

mesmerized.

2008-09-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

[Ja Rule] Girl your stare those eyes I
[Ashanti] Love it when you look at me baby
[Ja Rule] Your lips, your smile I
[Ashanti] Love it when you kiss me baby
[Ja Rule] Your hips those thighs I
[Ashanti] Love it when you thug me baby
[Ja Rule] And I cant deny I
[Ashanti] Love it when I'm wich'u baby


this song sends the chill up my spine like whenever he hit the right spot on that place whenever he do the massage.

only you- Ashanti

2008-09-12T00:34:00.001+08:00

Ooh, I can't wait to get next to you
Oh, I just can't leave you alone
Boy, you got me doing things that I would never do
And I can't stop the way I'm feelin', if I wanted to
I'm crazy 'bout the way that you could make me say your name
And if I couldn't have you I would probably go insane

[chorus]
Only you can make me feel (only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)
Only you can make me feel (only you, only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)

Ooh, I can't wait to get next to you
Oh, I just can't leave you alone
Boy, you stay inside my mind, ain't no denyin' that
And only you could do them things that got me coming back
This gotta be the realest thing that I have ever felt
And I'll do what I gotta do, to keep you to myself

[chorus]
Only you can make me feel (only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)
Only you can make me feel (only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)

Crazy (crazy) 'bout the ('bout the) way you (make me) feel (ah)
I just (I just) gotta (gotta) have you (have you) here (ah)
And I (and I) wanna (wanna) let you (let you) know (ah)
I won't (I won't) ever (ever) let you (let you) go

[chorus]
Only you can make me feel (only you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)
Only you can make me feel (you can make me feel)
And only you can take me there (only you can take me there)

Ooh, I can't wait to get next to you
Oh, I just can't leave you alone

your call.

2008-09-11T15:43:00.003+08:00

he called!
he called!

at 1522hrs he called!!!

thank gawd he called when i gt back from the salon as i did not bring my fon.
and den adek called.
i conference them.
the moment i heard them talking to each other with adek feeling excited too, made me cry.
bloodie hell i miss him.
my date is botak now.. awww..
conferm cute kan.
Michael Scofield la sangat.

his abah is uber cool.
Iman must have gotten the merepek-ness and disturbing-ppl thing from his abah.
we gt to knoe more of each other.
when i ferst met his abah, i scared sia.
gt the benges face.
waduhh.. takot la..
den after that ok.
naseb baek abah dier very smiley.
Iman also gotten the wide smile thing from him.

parting ways was the saddest part just now.
i controlled my emotions and so did he.
i kissed his forehead, told him to take care and said "i love you" fer one last time until i get to see him on the 27th.
we waved goodbye.

i'm so gonna fetch him.
we go eat McDonalds kae.
and den we go eat waffles at suntec kae.

it's not what you leave behind. it's what you gain days ahead.

"that's for Tania", he said.
and all i can do is smile widely.
love la seii.

2008-09-11T03:03:00.003+08:00

5 more darn hours.
dammit.

i'm lost without you - Blink 182

I swear that I can go on forever, again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips, and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am,
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now?
I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming
And if you will keep me from waking, to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you..
I'm lost without you...

___________________________________________

adek's bf, Dynn text me just now.
while i was at werk.
thanx fer the comforting words.
i'm so used to having him around.
darn.
i am tearing up as i type this.

Iman.
i am so gonna miss you.
2 weeks. just 2 weeks.
pfft.
281 hours.
clock's ticking, seconds rushing.
u know what to do when you miss me.
just look between ur fingers.
"jauh di mata, dekat di hati"
i'll miss you.
my heart is yours to keep aight.
love you loads.
really.
cross my heart and hope to die.
"just one more step to our future together."
i'l be lost without you....

2008-09-04T11:49:00.002+08:00

When you stand so close to me
Im feeling butterflies
Is this the way that it supposed to be
When I look into your eyes
All you have to do is say my name
Just a stutter more like butter
Since I met you boy my whole worlds changed
I can't hide this or deny this

again.

2008-09-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

i'm at it again.
i just texted Adek.
i miss him.
i'm counting down the days.
exactly one more week.
just a week.
i am ardi missing him like eff now.
pfft.
will be sending him off next thursdae.
den cant see him for 2 weeks.
so bacen.
gembeng.
cengeng.
giant, can i get a hug from you like now?

5 minutes to midnight.

2008-09-03T10:46:00.003+08:00

Brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
Fast lives we're stuck in the undertoe
But you know the places I wanna go
'Cause oh oh oh I've got a sickness
You've got the cure
You've got the spark I've been looking for
And I've got a plan
We walk out that door

You know you wanna just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
And sing it oh oh oh
We got all we need so here we go
Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up, alright
At five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

We could, pack up and leave all our things behind
No fact or fiction or storyline
'Cause I need you more than just for tonight
You're oh oh oh like air
I can't stop my breathing in
I'm weak and you are my medicine
I won't stop 'til I am under your skin

You know you wanna just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
And sing it oh oh oh
We got all we need so here we go
Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up, alright
At five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

And when the clock strikes twelve
Will you find another boy to go and kiss and tell?
'Cause you know I never will
I think we should strike a match
And we'll hold it in the wind to see how long it lasts
We could make the time stand still

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up, alright
At five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop (and come alive)

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
Coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up, alright
At five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

this song just reminds me of Iman. pfft.
aiya. any other songs wit uber nice lyrics just reminds me of him.
i miss him la.
pfft.
sunday seems too long away.
i so praying for the day to pass by fast.

2008-09-03T01:45:00.001+08:00

i'm in love.
head over heels.
me, you and the dancefloor.

"Thought about this love of ours
How intense it really is
And I figured it out
I’ll never find better love than the love you give
Bet ya, can’t think without you
Not a doubt, that you’re the one I need
Look how far we’ve come, since day one
This is how it’s supposed to be"

Imran Ajmain's Seribu Tahun.

2008-09-01T05:57:00.000+08:00

Relaku menunggu mu,
Seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup ku kan selama ini
Biar berputar utara selatan
Ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia...

Relaku mengejar mu,
Seribu batu jauh lagi
Tapi benar kah kaki ku kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini
Biar membisu burung bersiulan
Tenang lah gelombang lautan
Ku masih setia

Chorus
Ada kah engkau yakin ini cinta
Ada kah engkau pasti ini tuk selama lama nya
Rela ku menunggu mu seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benar kah hidup ku kan selama ini
Biar berputar utara selatan
Ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia

pics pics pics.

2008-08-31T21:49:00.002+08:00

ppl who matters in my life..

werk. fun. werk. fun.

that place.

love them la seii

my Bolbos. last dae of year 2, sem 1

i told you so.

gonna mis them a whole lot sia..

pfft

pfft

2008-08-29T04:33:00.003+08:00

i cant believe this.
i am tearing up like mad.
just because of one simple awful truth.
i miss him.
and thinking about what will be happening in 1 week, 6 daes aint helping.
i cant seemed to head off to my dreamland.
my bantal busuk is wet.
herbz is just being hugged by me from just now.
since i got home.
since in transport.
listening to jiwang songs aint helping.
i looked out at the place where he usually parked his bike while waiting fer my lift.
and i felt the sting in ma eyes.
when i reach my room, took out my watch and bangle in front of the mirror(normal routine), our pic caught my eye...
and Imran Ajmain's Seribu Tahun was playing on ma phone.
and i heard the same sound his bike makes.
mane aku tak nanges.
bodo.

But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
Cause my world revolves around you it's so hard for me to breathe

i miss you, Noor Iman BIn Mohd Harun.
and i hate this feeling.
can you not do camps anymore, you Mr. Outdoor Trainer??
ok kidding.

pfft.
can ppl really pass awae from missing someone?
werds from his late grandma "jauh di mata, dekat di hati"

remember Iman, "whenever you miss me, just look at the spaces between your fingers and know that mine fits perfectly in between them"

things left unsaid are now spoken.

2008-08-28T01:25:00.003+08:00

things have been going on fine for me these past few days. except fer the fact that i cant wait to get ma pay. have been busy with work, but yet still find time to spend with Iman.

we've been hanging out, did loadsa talking about things that matters and sometimes things that dont. just being around him make me smile and laugh. he's crazy. i am serious. things with us have been wonderful and colurful. Alhamdulillah.

he's gonna serve the nation soon, daymmn. exactly 2 more weeks. gonna miss him la.. wah pehh..

aniwae, i just heard something from ma closest someone yesterdae when i was at werk. that closest someone drop by to pay me a visit together with ger boyfie. and ya la, while smoking, she told me la.. i am not gonna state what that close one spoke to me about, bute here's something for those ppl who thinks they knoe so much about my FUCKING life.

first thing first.
i am happy.
i am not kidding when i said this.
wait.
lemme allow myself to repeat that gain.
I AM HAPPY.
oops. sorry. i wanna rephrase that.
I AM friggin HAPPY WITH MY LIFE NOW!!!

i pierce my lips not because i broke off with the previous one. i pierce even before we broke off.
i planned to add a few more on ma face.
i started smoking back. ya. why? cannot?
and no, not beacuse i was to depressed with the break up. NO. haha. hell no.
i was having so much fun la after the whole thing.
it was a MUTUAL AGREEMENT, and we both knoe that we are gonna be ok. and we even state that no matter what, there's no turning back. so yeah.
i move on. I HAVE TO. i dun wanna be so caught up with the past that i am stuck there and not be able to do anything for my own future.

check that the phrase has been bold and change to largest font for those of you hu still don't understand.

you guys are funnie you knoe. what? you guys think you knoe everything? oh please. you guys are not even google.com to begin with.

i am a grown up. i hope when you ppl are reading this, please, i repeat, please use a grown up kind of thinking to understand what i have wrote.

i am happie with my life now. enjoying myself around work and people that matters. i have family and friends and a love who still love me no matter what.

true friends will tell you when your face is dirty. and even offer to clean that up for you. true friends will love you even if you woke up with make-up smeared on your face, bra hanging sideways across your chest in the morning with panties being worn inside out. anything. i am glad i have such frens to even begin with.

to those who were really there during the whole thing, you knoe who you are, thanx alot for ur understanding, ur willing to accept slight changes and adapt to new ones. thanx alot.

to those whom you think you care, thanx but NO THANX.
get on my level. scram!

something for him.

2008-08-28T01:07:00.003+08:00

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau basah
detik demi detik ku hitung
kinikah saat ku pergi.

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan aku jatuh cinta

senandumgku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tida dusta, sumpah kucinta
sampai ku menutup mata.
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata.

Little Bit - FORGET ABOUT ME.

2008-08-12T12:48:00.001+08:00

Hmm
Whoaaa
Oohhh
Yeahh

You said it wasn't
Gonna be like
It was before
Then it happened again
Pushing me back
Out the door
Thought it would be
For real this time
Love me forget
About the signs
So now what do I do
Now, that I know
That we're through

Wish that I
Could move on
Can't let go
It's too strong
Just like that
And then you're gone
Is this how
You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears
Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

[Chorus:]
Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno
What I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna
Stick around
Then, baby
Forget about me

Too late, sorry
I didn't even
Have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby
I don't understand
Gave you everything
You asked for
And was ready
To give you a lot more
I would've given
The world
Right in the palm
Of your hand

Wish that I
Could move on
Can't let go
It's too strong
Just like that
And then you're gone
Is this how
You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears
Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

[Chorus]

Boy
My heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away
From all the lies
It's up to you
Cause heaven knows
I've tried
Tell me
You're still in love
Yeahhhh
Ohh

[Chorus]

Forget about me
I really loved you...

Should i stay

2008-08-12T12:27:00.002+08:00

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh... should I stay?
Should I go?

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I...?

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about...

what am i suppose to do?
how am i suppose to feel?
why should this even happen?

fuck.
didnt expect maself to break down last night.
God, pls gimme the will to and strength to go through the day..

Liza Hanim - Biarlah Aku Merinduimu

2008-08-07T15:58:00.002+08:00

Dosakah aku menyintaimu
Dan itu bukan kehendakku
Itu juga bukan kemahuanmu
Menodai percintaan ini

Dosakah aku menyintaimu
Setelah engkau dimiliki
Aku gagal memujuk hati ini
Untuk terus melupai dirimu

( korus )
Izinku berteduh seketika
Merebah rindu pengubat duka
Demi ku menyintaimu
Menyayangi dirimu
Meskipun sekadar dalam mimpi

Pergilah sayang kepadanya
Kerna dia lebih memerlukanmu
Pengorbanan sudah lama jadi milikku
Jangan kau kesali

Aku tidak tahu mengapa harusku
Menyintai dirimu
Mungkinkah kau tak ada jawapan yang lain
Teranglah padaku
Agar tidak kusesal
Mengharapkan kasih pada yang berpunya
Agar kita sama merelakan

( ulang korus )

nabei. this song effing nice. was blog hopping when i overheard this song. search like fark sia who the eff sang this song..

i think of him... always have been.. and no, i ain't goin' nowhere.

2008-08-05T15:10:00.002+08:00

I will always be there for you.
When you need someone,
I will be that one you need.
I do all my best to, to protect you.
When the tears get near your eyes
I will be the one that's by your side.
I will be there when you call me in the middle of the night.
I will keep the rain from falling down into your light.
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

I will take tender care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
I will be there to make you strong and to lean on.
When this world has turned so cold
I will be the one that's there to hold.

I will be there when you call me in the middle of the night.
I will keep the rain from falling down into your light.
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
I promise

Through the fire through the rain
Through the joy and the pain
este amor remains the same
I'mma give you the world
Through the fights through the change
Through the nights through the days
este amor remains the same
I'mma give you the world

I'll pick you up when you fall
I'm at your side when you call
You just gotta know
That I love you baby boy
And just wanna give you the world

Everytime you hit the ground boy
I hold you down boy
Another skip town boy
I'll be around boy
You can count on me
I'm a follow through
If you need to hear it, feel
I'm a be the truth

Yes see
You ain't ever got nothing to worry about
If you burn by the fire I'm a carry around
Just holla when you need me around
Cause I got you like you got me
And forever baby holding you down

Kiss Me - Cassie feat Ryan Leslie

2008-08-05T14:23:00.001+08:00

[intro: Ryan Leslie]
Wanna dance
Just kiss you this way, right?
Can I do that?

[verse 1]
One touch can bring us closer
Don't want this to be over
You know that you complete me
Your love is what I need
Don't rush to see you leaving (Leaving)
Stay with me while I'm sleeping
'Cause you know what you do to me
I'm weak and you know my heart is beating

[pre-chorus]
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
You don't have to hold back or be shy
I can tell you want me in your eyes
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
Feels so good 'cause I know that you're mine
Boy I got my eyes closed 'cause you know that I

[chorus]
Love it when you kiss me (I love it)
Love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me
Love it when you kiss me
Love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me (I can barely breathe)
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me

[verse 2: Ryan Leslie]
Oh girl, I'm coming over (I'm coming over babe)
You know I wanna hold ya (Oh)
Kiss you (Kiss you), 'cause I know you want me too
I want to give you what you'll like
So, so pleas don't be afraid to (Afraid to)
To tell me what'll make you
Reach the top (Reach the top)
(Baby) Girl I'm needing it (I'm needing it)
'Cause baby I can feel your heart beating

[pre-chorus]
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
You don't have to hold back or be shy
I can tell you want me in your eyes
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
Feels so good 'cause I know that you're mine
Boy I got my eyes closed 'cause you know that I

[chorus]
Love it when you kiss me (Love it when you kiss me)
Love it when our lips meet (It seems toxicated)
You intoxicate me (I barely can breathe)
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me
Love it when you kiss me (And I love it when we)
Love it when our lips meet (Love it when our lips meet)
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe (Love it when you kiss me)
I love when you kiss me

[bridge]
Baby, ah-ah-ah...
Love it when you kiss me
Ah-ah-ah
I barely can breathe
Love when you kiss me

[chorus]
Love it when you kiss me
Love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me
Love it when you kiss me
Love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me...

awesome Vid..

2008-08-05T13:28:00.003+08:00

this song was playing through my head since last night. awesome awesome awesome.
i love the part he come over and hit the guy.
wunder if there's anyone out there who's willing to do it the same as what he did.
hmmm...

can't help but wait...

wtf

2008-08-04T15:04:00.002+08:00

if i am smiling now..
can someone tell me,
why do i feel like shit deep down inside?